basically today is my birthday :) (no im not happy) haha and im so G-freaking-LAD to say that my birthday is boring. idk. i feel nothing. do i deserve this? nothing on my birthday? why do i feel hopeless? this means nothing to me like my birthday you guise??? isnt it supposed to be a memorable day but hau bout no. idk guys. if anyone's reading this, well thank you. i really appreciate it as not everyone knows that i have a blog. last night was memorable. 30 minutes to 30/3. my family did a lil surprise but i was happy. i never expected. they threw me 2 packets of flour. i cried. because it was the first birthday surprise that ever happened in my life. but i dont even know why, i dont feel so excited. i was so excited a week before my birthday but after that. my feeling: 0 what the hell is wrong with me. what happened to me. am i sad or what what do i actually feel gawd this is so weird. everything is just... lol. i feel numb. can i die. like right now.
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WHADUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUP PEOPLE
Hows life dude? interesting? nice. it has been a loooooooooooooooooooooooo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0oong time since last i updated my blog oh my god. i'm sorry blogger i forgot you i knew i was supposed to update you all the time kan i was busy lah very busy with my HAPPY life so happy lol. no. so yeah. it's me. updating a new post which no one will read HAHA funny. well thank you if you are reading i aPPRECIATE IT. i have so many stories. most of them are the sad ones lol of course i wasnt born to be happy or maybe yes but later. idk, my life. it's getting complicated man i just cant- i have this understanding issue. y iz no 1 hiyer in dis werl andersten me like bro am i too complicated? if yes well ok. nothing special happened in my life. i'm waiting for it to happen :( i just wanna be happy for a day i mean no, no a day a year or a lIFE TIME DUDE. it's impossible ofcourse. yeah unless i was a king's daughter. there's a (infinity) lot of problems. i keep being sad. over little things. to my friends "benda sikit je dooooooooooooh menda" lol babe for me it's big. hais. i keep facing the same thing. the same problem. my braaaaaaaaaain my heaaaaaaaaaart. sometimes lah kan aku rasa macam "no i shouldnt exist" i am nothing to people. everytime, i will always be like
i am just tired of all these and i keep wondering when all these problems will stop disturbing me. i hate everything. i hate everyone. bye
Hows life dude? interesting? nice. it has been a loooooooooooooooooooooooo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0oong time since last i updated my blog oh my god. i'm sorry blogger i forgot you i knew i was supposed to update you all the time kan i was busy lah very busy with my HAPPY life so happy lol. no. so yeah. it's me. updating a new post which no one will read HAHA funny. well thank you if you are reading i aPPRECIATE IT. i have so many stories. most of them are the sad ones lol of course i wasnt born to be happy or maybe yes but later. idk, my life. it's getting complicated man i just cant- i have this understanding issue. y iz no 1 hiyer in dis werl andersten me like bro am i too complicated? if yes well ok. nothing special happened in my life. i'm waiting for it to happen :( i just wanna be happy for a day i mean no, no a day a year or a lIFE TIME DUDE. it's impossible ofcourse. yeah unless i was a king's daughter. there's a (infinity) lot of problems. i keep being sad. over little things. to my friends "benda sikit je dooooooooooooh menda" lol babe for me it's big. hais. i keep facing the same thing. the same problem. my braaaaaaaaaain my heaaaaaaaaaart. sometimes lah kan aku rasa macam "no i shouldnt exist" i am nothing to people. everytime, i will always be like
i am just tired of all these and i keep wondering when all these problems will stop disturbing me. i hate everything. i hate everyone. bye
